Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Fare Thee Well

After getting sloshed on two bottles of Magnesium Citrate, I'm not sure how coherent this blog will be this evening. I told myself I would set some time aside this evening to do something very strange. More about that in a minute.

I have been UNBELIEVABLY busy. Trying to get my life in order before going in to the hospital in the morning for two weeks! Two Weeks! Okay, work is settled. Talked to mom tonight, gave her phone numbers and all the information I know at this moment about my youngest and being where at what time with whom, etc. etc. I had the last meeting with the last doctor this morning. The Urologist. Up until this point I thought winning a beauty contest was required to be on my surgical team. I guess that's not the case.

I go in tomorrow morning to have the blood supply to my pelvic region cut off. It's called a urinary embolism. Apparently its so painful they have to keep me overnight to try and control some of it. sounds fun, yea?

so anyway, tonite I need to say goodbye to parts of my body they will be taking out in two days. Apparently I will be out of my head tomorrow night and unable to bid them a fond farewell. I don't want to grieve these parts when they are gone, and they have served me well up to this point. So here goes.

Dear Cervix,
I forgive you for allowing that sneaky cancer to take you over the way it did. I forgive you for not warning me until it was too late. I know that you are not to blame for letting stress break down your immunity like that, it was a team effort. I do want to thank you for heralding the arrival of my beautiful girls.

Dear Cancer,
I still harbor some strong feelings toward you, but you are also a part of me. I want you to know that I respect you and now it is time for you to go. You are not welcome in my body and I expect you to not return.

To all my other wonderful parts,
Thank you uterus for carrying my babies. Thank you bladder for letting me hold it longer than I should've. Thank you vagina for all that fun! Thank you rectum for haulin' out the trash. I appreciate all of you and bid you a fond farewell!

Peace & Love, Susan


Aidan said...

Susan, I am with you in spirit today. I love you. I am incredibly impressed and amazed at your strength, resolve, positivity and courage. You are an amazing, wonderful human being. Aidan

Anonymous said...

Hi there. My name is Deirdre from Ireland. I have been following your blog for some time now. I have enjoyed reading about the ups and downs of your life and wonderful family. Your strength and courage is truely overwhelming to me. I am sitting here in my office on a normal Monday morning for me, and my heart goes out to you today. I am trying to think of something inspiring to tell you - but I feel that there is nothing to say that will fully acknowledge your strength. Please let us know how you are doing as soon as you feel up to it. xx

MMaxwell said...

Susan is doing well with her surgery. That is not to say it is not hard and difficult, but she is amazing the doctors and this nurse. I am sure she will post a blog soon. : )

Deirdre said...

Thanks for update Mona. Deirdre.

MMaxwell said...

Susan is on her way home from the Hospital. She has done an amazing job with everything. I am sure you will hear from her soon.

Cristina (in England) said...

Thank you, Mona, for your latest update. And the warmest welcome and my best wishes to her.